Deep Thoughts!
I noticed the birds at aqua-therapy still sound like ducks, but they’re hitting/rustling paper sacks now, instead of pipes – and someone fixed the leaky drips (I didn’t hear THEM at all)! ... My Jenda is definitely rumbling – and at the start of her train whistle (meow), I heard the "m"! ... People’s voices aren’t as deeply low-pitched, but still have colds, mouthfuls, bubbles, whistling wind, and Donald Duck on top! :O)
Other things are beginning to sound a bit more natural ... i.e.: my typing on the keyboard, potato chip bags, footsteps, the water running in the faucet, Jenda purring, cars and other vehicles, doors closing, my electric toothbrush, some music. ... Singing voices are still a huge challenge! ... I still hear LOTS of quacks, whistles, banging noises, bubbling noises, rings/chimes, and static everywhere I go ... I still whistle when I breathe! :O)
I’m really tickled with the website I found last night! I’ve started reading a little bit of it, and it’s already very comforting to me! ... I’ve also remembered that my CRS/past meningitis affected my brain in that I do tend to think/process things and grasp/learn new concepts a bit more slowly than others – and this CI is certainly an extreme new concept for it! :O) ... Thankfully, once I DO grasp the concepts, I do VERY well with them! I just have to have patience with myself – which is something I’m not very good at. In my mind, I have to be a living miracle and inspiration – exceeding everyone’s expectations (especially my own) – in everything I do (especially medically)! It’s really difficult for me to accept that with the CI, I may NOT do as well or progress as quickly as some of the people I read about/meet! :O( ... I do realize that I’m at a disadvantage: since I live alone (with my kitty cat) and don’t have a job – I don’t have anyone with me who can help me identify the strange new sounds I’m hearing or practice talking with me in different environments. While I’m doing my best to compensate, I’m sure this will prolong a bit the time it takes for my brain to adjust. I need to accept that that’s OKAY and try not to compare myself with anyone else! :O)
Tomorrow is my third mapping/activation at 9:30am! ... I can’t wait! ... I’ll let you know how it goes when I get home! :O)
Other things are beginning to sound a bit more natural ... i.e.: my typing on the keyboard, potato chip bags, footsteps, the water running in the faucet, Jenda purring, cars and other vehicles, doors closing, my electric toothbrush, some music. ... Singing voices are still a huge challenge! ... I still hear LOTS of quacks, whistles, banging noises, bubbling noises, rings/chimes, and static everywhere I go ... I still whistle when I breathe! :O)
I’m really tickled with the website I found last night! I’ve started reading a little bit of it, and it’s already very comforting to me! ... I’ve also remembered that my CRS/past meningitis affected my brain in that I do tend to think/process things and grasp/learn new concepts a bit more slowly than others – and this CI is certainly an extreme new concept for it! :O) ... Thankfully, once I DO grasp the concepts, I do VERY well with them! I just have to have patience with myself – which is something I’m not very good at. In my mind, I have to be a living miracle and inspiration – exceeding everyone’s expectations (especially my own) – in everything I do (especially medically)! It’s really difficult for me to accept that with the CI, I may NOT do as well or progress as quickly as some of the people I read about/meet! :O( ... I do realize that I’m at a disadvantage: since I live alone (with my kitty cat) and don’t have a job – I don’t have anyone with me who can help me identify the strange new sounds I’m hearing or practice talking with me in different environments. While I’m doing my best to compensate, I’m sure this will prolong a bit the time it takes for my brain to adjust. I need to accept that that’s OKAY and try not to compare myself with anyone else! :O)
Tomorrow is my third mapping/activation at 9:30am! ... I can’t wait! ... I’ll let you know how it goes when I get home! :O)
posted by Shel @ 10:30 PM
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